We are totally drenched after a super heavy thunderstorm, but we are not tired, we have rather found a new energy in us, that makes our feelings much stronger. we had gone through really big turmoil and upheaval, now we know how much we matter to each other. bee i love you. (:
cj is still the same, just that i have managed to catch up a little on the understanding of new topics teached. but theres this irritating midget(which yisen calls dwarf height peeps, damn bad but im still using it -.-) in our class, not i want to purposely outcast him. i tried to accept him in a normal way in the first place, but i can see he is getting on our nerves recently. or not recently, its gradually. maybe cos of his weirdness? i dun wanna ostracize him but seriously, he rants on the stuff we dun really get it, and tries to laugh at his own jokes, so this made himself a joke. so most of the time the bunch of us would be giggling because he is the joke, wah damn bad.
though lessons are boring, i hope im getting used to settling down and paying attention bah. today did work and understood wad my teachers are teaching! :DD Yeah for many people like they achieved that long time ago, but for me its an accomplishment to be able to understand till this extent, you feel damn happy when you got it. but im a chem lagger, cant get anything out of chem till i slowly think and analyse at home. at least i got it luh heh. :)
then finally today had mass pe, which is an unfortunate event where i got caught for my black laces. i dunno why must jc be so, strict? i mean we are all heading towards maturity, or some like me already being mature, they shouldn be so picky about appearance stuff right. like its jc so should just slacken down. not so picky on hair, okay maybe hair is understandable, but wad have a black shoelace gotta affect our studies? just like how ONLY cjc must wear white-based shoes like huh?! i thot cjc was a blessing in disguise cos of its slack feel, but im wrong. its quite strict on its discipline compared to many other schools. even comparing to top schools. so i think wad cj doing is redundant TO THE MAX. aiya shit im just blurting out how i got unhappied by injustice in cj. o.o
yeah so mass people was just like canoeing training, its tough but not as tough as canoeing training though. sweat the same amount still. and my leg couldn work well today, like very suan till you cant continue exercising it luh zz. then after pe i think i got super hungry and ate 2 servings again. always eating too much, but growing too little! inefficient growing and wasting of resources! :@
and one thing is jc needs their students to keep paying and paying and paying for their education. why? cos by paying for the notes, files, misc. educational stuff then can we spark off our education journey and then can we start to really get educated. damn sian keep asking money luh, much worse than secondary school. one shot asked 5, even 20. o.o
but eventually, im heading for a destination, where i can get my stable good pay job, and get semi rich, enough to spend can le, and provide for my laopo. im not bragging im serious okay. so i must work hard from now on. also must keep reminding myself to do canoeing trainings at home! (:
alright i think im ending here, my fringe is ugly luh. :(((((( not a long post though, sorry baobei! but it shows rather how i felt towards life now bah. babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy HOB! :D
Labels: You are my reason for living.
6:27 AM;
So right now 3 weeks in CJ, i can say i should be used to it le bah. At first didn really like the school, plus not expected, but overall the orientation kind of proved me wrong. it was fun with the different dirty games, and mass dance. except for the time when they release us, always drag till super super late arghhhhhh. I can say i like CJ now, i will stay in it, but not say its my dream school. to me, its just a school i wont dread, or will i super crazed over it.
So i thought i found a rather nice friend, we calls him B cos he got the B face. cos the name B really suits his face, without specific reasons.
at first got off quite well, during orientation and first few days of official school days. but as days go by, maybe he isnt our character, maybe we too guailan for him, he kind of shunned us. like through the many actions, i believe its not being paranoid but its rather obvious. but well blame us in the first place for being so guailan, and maybe left him the impression we wont study and only knows how to joke and play. download us liao now. maybe the class also.
but mai siaosiao okay i got study de hor! though right now i cant make it thru the lectures, dun really understand what their talking. and really, it scares you and makes you panic when everyone in the lecture theatre is like answering the questions fired by the lecturers. howwww i may end up being the backseats strugglers. (got such word? o.o)
and anyway, jc life started with quite, not a good start. cos its no longer you can comfortably try to find a way to fit into the new environment. you have to be FAST, THINK FAST AND ACT FAST. wah for slow mo people like me quite hard eh.
FAST: for example ccas, we thought we gotta hell lota time to choose due to the 27Feb deadline, but found out everyone is chiong-ing for trials and such. so right now, not many trials left, or rather dun have liao. left with only cross country trial andddd odac for sporty ccas. the rest are just clubs which most likely do not need any trial. nothing appeals to me actually. howww? :( theres barely anything appealing to us right now, so have to go for dumb cross country club. missed vball and fitness club argh. and odac - NONO.
like at first thought i would love canoeing as a cca. yes i would like it to have a cca, but the training schedule is hectic like as if canoeing is your job, it takes up 5 days in your week. imagine everyday soak in water and just busy with trainings, where got time to care studies manzx. and the trial, it wasnt a tryout type of trial, its a endurance torture exercise. 10++ laps, countless sets of basic exercise and all sorts of shit. especially morning jog for canoeing. dun get scammed by the word jog, it should be sprint. totally drained your energy so you can have much time in class, daydreaming and dozing off.
THINK FAST: yes jc people understand problems and think very fast. i find that scary, cos weirdo/insomniac Ee Ban is like a nerd with high socks and is very clever. he dun exactly mug, but he is very interested in studies, very into it definitely. and he often ramble some random shit which resulted in us retorting a 'Kkk' in his face.
ACT FAST: when must do homework in library, as in need reference, no one procrastinates man. everyone just do it. like the Nike. they like always get things done fast not like me slackk slackkk and slackkkk. i should learn to be adult liao. uniforms also cant get like after 2 weeks. everyday gotta go check out if got stock, they restock like dam bloody small in quantity seriously. but im to blame luh buy uniform at so late.
hais now ccaless, uniformless and friendless. i believe things can get better, but even if it does not, i dun care, i still can live. i just know i dun want slack cca again. okay i need go get money from mum liao laopo please read this! :DDD i dun think its substance-ful leh sorryyyyyy.
Labels: Be my baby forever.
6:59 AM;
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