baby is back like FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! YAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! but.. like left 2 more days with her then im off to cjc and shes off to ajc i dun want different school luhhhhhhhh. )))))): hope both of us will end up in NYJC appeal. (:

today was woken up by sms from MOE, not the alarm. was like open the sms and str8 away wake up. wtf cjc?! i nvr expected to go into this jc and nvr wanted to go luh. like i just put it in 6th choice cos i nvr really thought i would go so far till the 6th. then i got headache cos started fretting about it while immediately forced the brain to wake up. asked around and found very few went cjc, and many didn get into the jcs they wanted, and many didn get into like 1st or 2nd. what is moe becoming man? then like at first still pondering if should go sentosa, but in the end still went luh.

reached and went to buy black peppered ham while waiting for tzekiat to come. then we set off to sentosa, and was quite pleased cos the blacks could go to the outing with us. walked for quite long before reaching siloso beach de end part where we immediately played soccer. wah i wonder what happened to me, we played for just awhile, like after some running, and we were all panting and sticking out our tongues like dogs. like super duper hot, warm, stuffy and out of breath! still continued to play till finally we all rest, and was in a confusion. cos i was feeling dizzy and was about to faint omg. like trying hard to stay conscious cos seriously about to pengzx. then finally the latecomers, lam zx and shaun came. the rest went to play soccer with other people under the pavillion while me tk and jianan chose to camp and watch the bags. actually its just i dun want blisters to my feet again. and like played this forfeit game, each round will increase the number of push ups by 5. wah did like many and jianan kena 50. watched tk roll on the beach damn retarded got video.

then wanted to play forfeit game when they come back, but like i couldn move them at all so went to lunch at delifrance and keep refilling the ice lemon tea. then went back, some went to walk walk while the rest we played rugby. also played awhile quite fun but panted like fuck. the duration of our games damn fast finish de. then eventually few decided to leave and left 6 of us playing vball. my arms hurts like hell when sand-covered vball descend from high in the air luh. even when rain liao still played vball like siao.

so finally went to bathe and felt so fresh cos no longer has sand in underwear. ;X went back to vivocity and left with jianan to mrt. managed to reach the salon by 7.30pm, like they were about to close on 8pm. managed to persuade them to do my hair makeover. so now my hair is short, nerd and ugly luh. flat black head like a mushroom. T_T wanted to meet beee but cant and caused her to be scolded by father. ):

now i keep sneezing i dunno why. i think caught a cold or something, my nose is really a great irritance. beee hates me. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

alright i nvr blog for the past 2 days cos i was at shiyuan's house on 28 night. so here are the rough details on these 2 days. (:



28 Jan
woke up finally at a later time compared to cny days. woke up and like called that NES(Not Enough Sleep) shiyuan to meet at bishan. cos he is practically staying up every night getting hooked to the com and sleeping when the sun is about to rise. met him fast for the first time, before that met jianan kenny tzekiat for the awhile cos i dunno why they chose bishan to stroll around. after met ate some shit chicken rice from Qi Le, sucks man not nice. then i was wearing cap so shiyuan keep taking out my cap to see my cap lines on my hair. dam ugly. taxi-ed to his house, ate mac, used com for one whole night - guitar and watching people fail at different type of stuff. and watched him play some zombie shooting Left4Deaddam real life game before sleeping at 5am the next day.

29 Jan
woke up and i think he cant make it like he seriously like sleepy im not that. straight prepared and went jamming. it was phail, epic phail. cos watch too many people fail at www.failblog.org so i guess we got influenced to fail. failed jamming cos only had 3 people we couldn complete the roles. had a hard time trying to sing while playing guitar. after that even failed to flag the bus 13, just allowed the bus to go pass us just like that. so he went home to sleep i went to dye my hair. but wait the salon wasnt open so shit, half happy half sad. happy cos can still keep my hair, sad cos i dunno when else i can do that, like dam rush liao no time. hope perhaps tomm after sentosa i can find some time to dye my hair black. cut tomm should i or wait till 31? need some time organisation to be able to dye my hair on time tomm evening.

so now i just woke up and ate my dinner cos went home and pengz. actually also not so tired luh. YES left one more day hope can meet baobei tomm night when she comes back! :D:D:D:D

today visited quite a number of relatives, in decreasing order. we haven really finish up the visitings yet though, left 2 houses. but overall i think its okay. received many angbao, though nvr really count how many i got. and also, i was quite surprised when yaosheng said he reads on naruto. woah. and he told me he regretted going into nyjc back then and would yearn for sajc. zzz but i still think, yes sajc might be a fun school, but im not going to get dragged into the play mood. i want more of balance. as commented by him, nyjc peeps also play alot, but not as capable as sa people. aiya go in liao then say luh! but anyway also submit my choices liao, so no use thinking so much. ate many cny goodies. talked some. at the end at my cousin house playing Daidi and Blackjack. was quite unlucky compared to yesterday, keep baoing and kena open hand. so sort of lost what i earned yesterday. so now back here, feels that cny is like over. cos the visitings have already been done, and they are all prepared to work/study tomm. awww but we are gonna start soon too. T_T im hungry now again, want to eat. and i installed guitar pro already! i was thinking, cos perhaps jamming tomm. like abit rush uh. nvm see how zx replies.

now left a few days to school reopen, but only have 1 day with beee. ))))): im really quite upset over this, cos i want to spend last days with her before going to different schools. and like why must there be a freaking gathering AGAIN right after cny. damn bek chek. z. now cant sms beee cos dad suspects. he even called me one instance. O.O seems like you have disappeared luh, where are you babyyyyyyy. ))))))))))))))))))))):

11.53pm

Reply to Bee's letter:

yeah i guess im really quiet in a crowd. but i can explain. its not because im an inert person, its just i dun want to be over enthu that in the end sort of make a fool out of yourself. i have experiences where i was very enthu budden the group dun seem to appreciate it and showed unwillingness. i dun want to be some thick face person who is acting on my own accord where they simply dun agree with my enthusiasm. so i have sort of learnt not to be too enthu in a group. besides, i aint close with them, so like im afraid they might think, "why is this guy like kinda talking too much" and maybe cause them to dislike me. one example is like kt, who many people dun really like him cos he talked too much sometimes or maybe enthu in a way people dislike. another example is like casey, where they dun really like him cos he is always at the fore front being too enthu and irritates them. and you see always when i want to like 'crazy' or talk more lively, my closer friends as you should know, keep retorting back. i mean yes, because we have been 4 years of friends, we are used to this, do you realise like they retort almost every sentence i say. i mean just to purposely guailan, but its also a kind of rejection i feel. i also very guailan, but not till the extent every sentence i retort. and when i retort, i dun scold 'dog' or 'shutup'. yes once again, it comes down to "being 4 years of friends". but i just find it rude, like people wanna properly say something but i cant get it across. so i dun want to enthu too much in case its just another guailan retort in the face, and as i said, im not close with them at all in fact. and seriously, i actually dun have many friends but i really hope you dun mind. friends in this case mean really can talk and share and like play a role as a true friend. maybe in this case i only have like shiyuan? or not. but dun worry, i can still click quite well with them, not in the sense really true friends but just good friends. and well im not closing up; i tell you everything right, like i find no barrier in saying anything so sometimes you may find me like weird why am i rambling this and that. everyone wants a good friend right, who wont wish for? but i cant find any, so to me you are my truthfully my everything already. but perhaps i got my retribution, cos i misdeed in the past. guailan-ed to the very extreme extent, so now im just getting back what i threw at other people last time. and i couldn just talk normally to any of my friends, just selective talking cos certain topics just create barriers between friends and me. yup and i agree i seriously did change, its not i anti-social but its more of phobia. i seriously hope you dun mind at all, because i will be more active if you want. i can be very active, but maybe this enthusiasm isnt what THEY like. can ask one of my 4years friend, cos they definitely can say that i used to be very GUAILAN and crazy.

just want to voice out what i really feel luh, i really hope you dun mind me being quiet. im still sociable, just i like to stand one side and not become a clown in the end. lol was supposed to sleep after reading your letter, but couldn fall asleep so blogged this out for you. hope you get what i mean baby. :)

1.03am

back from bai nian, i guess i will blog now cos i wont be able to blog at night later. after dinner im heading to cousin house to play bah, so wont have time to blog. besides tomm must wake early for more bai nian. ahhhhhhhh. i dunno why but i dun really enjoy cny now.

anyway, so went to Dua Bei house( BIG uncle house ) and saw a pet dog! omg super cute with a small tail shaped like a bun. its dam active as expected. ate there, then went to 220 to meet the rest of our relatives. bai nian and receiving of hongbaos, nicenice. so nvr did much, except keep playing blackjack. lose win lose win. so nvr earn much.

then went popo house and stoned much, almost fell asleep cos their canto is inaudible. some yes but mostly no. now back home, feeling drained and lethargic.

beeeeeeeeee ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :'(

I'm missing you badly now, argh. ._.

3rd day le. :((( faster come back luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. >:(

anyway, so today woke up with my nose feeling weird, and i have to eat some porridge thingy it just spoils my mood. wanted to play some guitar but end up getting hooked to a channel 5 movie. not any nice show but just my plain laziness. so after show like woah, damn fast 3 liddat have to prepare to go over and have reunion dinner.

when reached there, played 2 rounds of 2 person Bridge, then watched them play mahjong. i only know abit of it, so was absolutely sianned. but after that was okay, cos had Asshole Daidi and made my little cousin the asshole always. then taught them Banlad. :o hope tomm can play some money. anyway i wonder how this season de cny would be, cos im feeling reeeeeeeeeeally empty right now. DDDDDD;

alright now im stoning, packed my room, so dun really have anything to do. baby where are you now worrrrr. ):

2nd day le, arghhhhhhh. today wasnt very fruitful, as in not much activities. now im yawning, cos damn sian, and the night is still young.

today 24 Jan, woke up late again. as i expected kangtai would meet me later and yes i can get more sleep woohoo! then finally when we met, ate nice chicken rice then went to this playground to play guitar. changed to another since it was freaking humid and hot. then finally played some songs and very fast, time's up gonna go for prayer thingy.

so parents picked me up and we went to pray for a short while then heading home. i felt headache in the midst of the prayer i dunno why. i thought like maybe can go shiyuan house slagg, but he cant and i found nothing to do. wanted to play drum but like very sian alone go play. LONELY. so considering whether should go bball with lam now..

alright today i really got nothing to blog luh my day is so short today it makes me wonder why. but day short good luh, beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee can faster come back! :@:@

8.24pm

now its night, the worst part of the day always. especially now you are overseas, i cant help but miss you so badly. kept thinking of your little actions and all, makes me wanna see you so damn badly, sigh.

so 23 Jan, i woked up at 8, and felt so damn sleepy. half of me want to stick the comfy bed, while the other half of me tells me i must go this last time soccer. but still, the lazy part of me overruled the other. so i slept like a bloody pig till 12plus, i wanted to find them in school, but because of my hair and all the hassle, decide to meet them when they got out.

met up, but didn realise we would end up singing k. had quite a good time singing cos long time nvr release my beautiful voice. o.o then because of this, we cancelled the supposed bugis dinner. we walked past the soccer place, saw some kids playing so was tempted to challenge. at first was winning, then dunno why cos sian we lost in the end. but cant blame, cos we were playing against stinky yalams who thinks small kids have the right to push. yalams can go die luh bloody shitzx. and kenny almost like fight with them woah.

so for dinner, we ate a spread at ty house. the food was really nice luh, with xiuquan clearing all the remaining food. ended up after dinner most of the people went home like losers, only left me warren kenny xiuquan to watch i forgot whats the name show. was nice but sleepy.

now back home, all sticky and tired, but whats really bothering me now is my emotions. i feel so down. i mean yes to many people, their gf/bf go overseas just for a while they will definitely miss but wont make a big fuss about it. but really i just feel very miserable now luh how. faster come back luh beeee. )):

12.21am

Labels: countdown 7

wah i look at this blogskin damn old and disgusting! must change liao. kinda lazy now, cos no one really comes to my blog so it doesnt matter. around 6 more days left with her! DDDDDDD;

Labels: wei shen me yi ge li bai T_T

but on a happier side, there a few happy events, not really happy but just not sad.

in the morn zixiang and kenny came my house. then like went to fetch them and didn realise my house area got fogging activity taking place. like when reach my house downstairs got fucking lot of dead cockroaches, half dead, flying, crawling, running cockroaches everywhere that scared the fuck out of all of us. like an infestation luh totally scared like wtffff.

then like reached my house thot safe le. then started setting up, played some songs, felt so warm, then like WAIT. OMG I SAW SOMETHING CRAWLING ON THE WALL. A FUCKING COCKROACH ON THE WALL! then wahhhh this fellow got lucky into my house and we attacked it with rolled newspaper. then saw in the kitchen, FUCK MORE AND MORE APPEAR. cos i think nvr close kitchen window then escape to my house. walau ehhh so high up 15 floor also can reach. then like totally freaked out when tried to killed cockroaches, killed one appear one killed one appear one again. zixiang freaked out till screamed, and my bro came to help too. like killed near to 10 cockroaches, including babies one. then got this cockroach zixiang tried to pk. it ran and like zixiang just frantically whacked like many times but all MISSED! wth seeing his reaction damn damn funny laugh till peng.

but after that went to some peaceful playing of songs, then well we could play so many songs actually but went jamming dunno why can play NONE.

then after choosing and submitting le, copied some tabs and rested back till 3plus went to see baby reborn hair at AB Salon! heh she looks dam cute with a round round face! :D:D:D and with clips too! super cute keep stealing glimpses at her. ;x

so that was all about it, the later part of the day, VEXED. now im okay yaye! nynyny, cnycnycny! :D

12.31am

Labels: ny to the win

okay i am feeling very vexed now. though i amended the jae form already, i still have mixed emotions in me. like just very vexed. firstly, why the hell do i go get a 13 for my olevels. i mean, okay its not bad already, cos i have been expecting pretty high points. BUT, i still feel quite upset this score doesnt really mean i can go many jcs. yes there are actually many jcs for me to choose, but by ruling out the lousy jcs i have 3 left in mind.

aj - very slight chance of getting in cos many peeps are demanding this factory
ny - just nice my 10points but i freaking hell dun like this school, not my taste
sa - i am okay with this school just i dun want to get influenced to a play mood and it requires me to walk far, but anyway i still stand a low chance in entering

yeah so fuck, many people are vexed and in a dilemma too. many cant decide. i have decided, but yet not happy. cos why, i regret not having work just a LITTLE harder in my cca to achieve A2, which can now save me and give me higher possibility to aj. i want go aj science stream, which is 8 and i have 10. pui think will want me in? so far differences, plus so many zai people going into this factory.

aiya deserve it, to a slacker who dun work hard and get caught in a vexed position. but comparing to many people, i do slack and do less, but doesnt mean i dun do at all. i just did work hard, and i do my homework as usual, not totally slacking. im just a half slacker, but i get higher points than full slacker. pretty sianned.

then at first i thought i had confirmed my submit already, so i was ready to enjoy some jamming. my pure intention is just to go there and have fun, like even if do not know how to play on the instruments, you can sing and just go happy easily. but what the fuck reach there the fucking person has no middle rooms for us, we have to take the small $12 rooms. like already sian liao, yet saw everything got fault. spoiled guitars, faulty amps, cracked cymbal, missing keys in keyboards and electrically charged mikes. almost everyone that first came, yearn for a nice experience, and just plainly setting up and look at these shitzx sianned the half of their spirit.

then we found we got no lyrics for the song we wanted to play, no drummer when im singing, no singer when im drumming, everything was just cocked up and like watched everyone saying fail. on the first experience, they saw us fail and like didn enjoy. whats further, not everyone has same interest in songs, so some want sing that, dunno this, went out of tune, go too fast. everything was just chaos in there, and 2hours passed like this. fucked up jamming.

to think last time we keep saying, our past band keeps playing the same song over and over again, but now we can play not a single one. dam cool.

yeah but like now feel vexed also no use. fate decides where i should go bah. hope i really can be in the same school as her, but very slight chance. :( aiya fuck submit liao still talk so much, go settle my mood down and bathe liao.

12.08am

Labels: crossroads

Hi.

I am here to blog.

Or rather just write out some personal feelings that are raging in me. Not really raging but just in the mood to write them yeah.

So now is 3 January 2009. I still cant really get myself to believe we are all in a new year now once again, all the secondary school life is over and done. No more anymore.

And right here all the graduates are waiting for the horrifying results on 12 Jan.

Wah seriously, its a scare to me, cos i know i will get really BIG points.

At first when i olevel-ed, I felt like,

"Gee olevels aint that difficult, I wont have to worry cos I know I can do it."

But now like think back, and looking at alot of confident people, I feel actually I do not stand a high chance of getting nice points. Really. I could feel I would once again be in disappointment, like how i got my results for PSLE.

But yeah seriously, no point worrying now, whats done is already done, the points will be set there already. Just voicing out some personal emotions. Await 12 Jan. D;

Okay enough of this results ranting, I must enjoy myself to the fullest in this period of time before I sink into depression after 12 Jan.

I actually have sudden loads of activities to do, and I'm wondering why I never did them in the Novs and Decs.

I gotta ride bike in ECP, watch many many movies, eat stingray at ECP, bird park. I wanna do all these now luh. Qi dai!

One positive thing now is, we are looking at people going to school, so its kind of 'xing zai le huo', or no? When seeing people go to school, it feels like you are so damn free and nice, I like.

And right now I'm missing BB againnnnn. Omg there are two days before i can see her again! ): Xin ku for me luh, cos tomm is dreadful family bbq which I'm not in the least interest, and Sunday BB cant come out. How? )))))))));

I'm ending this short post, just some random post bah.

Byebye.

2009 gives me a sense of dread, idk why. Supposedly we should be happy cos a new year means once again full of surprises waiting for us, and we get to have new things in life. But I just feel dreadful about what is awaiting us in 2009. After admitting into any institutions, we will all be facing a new environment again, new life, and back to the study mood to piah all the things cos cant play play in poly or jc. Why do I still feel dreadful about going to a new environment? Lol maybe I'm just still a kid haven grow up.

1.45am signing off

Hi fellow people..

The world is ugly.

My blog is dead its hardly even a blog.

I am wenxun.
Happily together with my dearest BB. <3
A typical boy who is quite short.
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