these few days getting quite emotional. those stuff kept poping into my mind. why cant i forget them. its quite an agony to keep getting troubled by those stuff. sian. i hope alot, but it can nvr happen anymore. fuck, got nothing to cover for all these stuff. everything seems to darkened to a worse state. no longer got anything to expect of, to be happy about or to get excited about. i keep falling and falling, its like neverending.
7:45 AM;
went out at 7pm plus, went amk hub to find only jes and fr was there. so played drum and bball. have been playing drum every weekend like a bloody no life, but well, was there a choice to live a better life. nothing more interesting meaningful can i find already. everyday going the same places, doing same things, and the feeling cant be lifted into happiness no matter how. not that happy these days. again, i wanna quit school and sleep for life. nah, no one cares. yawn kinda tired. i mean, fucking tired i didn realise until i posted. go to sleep ciaoz~ people.
10:02 AM;
sian. everyday is like getting from bad to worse, worse to worst. its getting sian-er and sian-er everyday and got nothing much in mind to do. homework is part of my life now, like wtf. i need some life. suddenly when i look out of the window of the bus just now, i saw this beautiful lump of fluffy bright white clouds in the clear blue sky, i wanna just sit there and forget everything in this world. heck care all the mafan stuff. and im feeling nostalgic all over again. fuck it.
3:06 AM;
serious fuck life. these weeks have been going to school myself, so i gonna wake fucking early to prepare. always wanna go school earlier but whenever wake up, i will feel bloody tired until i cant take it i just wanna throw myself out of the window and just die lah. nabeh. and its always the same we got nothing meaningful or nice to do, would be just so fucking sian. i cant take it, just dun wanna go to school lah. have been separated from the com world for quite awhile that im scared i might just dunno everything in the future. everyday go home is study. im so tired im not bothered to write or think of wad to write anymore. so guess will leave my blog for quite some period of time before coming back to post.
4:40 AM;
today woke up to eat breakfast and lunch and then set off to tuition. on the way drop by arcade to see kenneth and weilong, long time no see babes. then went to chem tuition which is boring. after that we went to kovan arcade, ty went home. ate dinner and went drumming again. tried many zai songs. could complete:
Tian Ti...(Extreme 43)
Da Qie...(Extreme 40)
Hua..(Extreme 39)
Breakdown...(Extreme 39)
Fantastic Factory...(Extreme 63)
aiya nothing to zai about. continue with elearning.
8:19 AM;
finally, got into abit of mood or something liddat to blog about today's outing. went to watch harry potter in the early morning, but we got late inside so missed out the front part. wanna watch again cos the graphics is so dam nice. potty mood. after movies went lunch at pizza hut where we ordered lunch set meal or something and after that, the girls went home. sh with her stead, ziyu with his stead and wanni went to buy water bottle(SHUI3 HU2 MUST PRONOUNCE DAM CLEAR). then its boys hours already we went to amk hub new arcade and wasted our whole day there. i was clearly addicted to drum and kept putting credits. think others got bored. not much. dunno wad has got into my head to keep thinking and playing with drum. izit cos its 13th friday that some evil evil stuff got into my head. nah i just wanna sleep now. gotta pia finish amaths elearning first.
9:08 AM;
i got too many high hopes that turned to false hopes in the end. why expect good stuff in life. all these shitzxz. real shitzxz.
quit.
4:44 AM;
sian.
2:22 AM;
i so fucking hate studies. always never ending homework, tuition and the 'dothisdothat' stuff from naggy parents. seriously, i wanna quit school.
6:22 AM;
I LOVE TUITION
I LOVE TUITION
TUITION ROCKS
TUITION ROCKS
TUITION BURN BRAINS TUITION BURN MY BRAINS
TUITION WOOOH
TUITION WOOOH
haiis some random tune about my utmost love for tuition. its only the start of two tuitions and im already dead halfway. I CANT TAKE IT. well today got youth day celebration nothing much, cos spend my recess mugging at the library. ZOMG guai~.
and we played bball at SCHOOL, which i haven been doing for years, cos last time i liked it cos i have a SIMPLE SIMPLE life. lets not talk about the sian stuff. they have been popping up everyday cos just.. sian lah.
I WANNA BE A DROPOUT AND SPEND MY DAY LISTENING TO THE BEAUTIFUL CHIRPINGS OF THE BIRDIES AND SEE THE TREES SWAY SIDE TO SIDE GENTLY WITH VERY NICE FLUFFY WHITE CLOUDS.
still, all these are randomness. i wonder if im feeling happy now. =S
7:15 AM;